drat it

I hate myself so so much right now.

I hate this

Saw a mother so proud of her daughter of facebook. "Go girls, we're proud of you". Just made me feel so depressed. Just wish I knew what that kind of thing feels like. Never really did...

....................................you guys seem to be the ones giving up all hope. As if you didn't have any faith in them. It just hurts to see you guys acting like this. You're upset I get it. But duders, don't dwell on it for too long. He said MAYBE. Can't you see that there's still that speck of hope in his words?

....yeah, I'm back....

I also wish I could talk with you. As in, chat or something. I'm just too scared to do so. I have trust issues. I'm also REALLY insecure. Yeah, I get hurt pretty easily. Just doesn't show I suppose. I don't think I'm at ALL emotionally stable.